Ho Hum.

To be honest, I don't feel like blogging tonight. I am hoping that just jumping in and starting will lead me somewhere. I have been at a loss of words (I know, can you believe it?) for several days now...but I want you to keep checking this site, so I want to keep updating!

The services for my uncle were a great celebration of his life. I have heard many stories over the past several days that have warmed my heart. Many conversations have been about my mom, which is bittersweet...on one hand it is so nice to remember her, and on the other hand, very painful. But if I could choose, I would rather still remember!

The week found me thrust into a role I haven't experienced for quite some time, and especially not this closely. The target on my back has seemingly put me on the receiving end of so much loss, so much pain...and consequently, so much love and support to see me through. I've been there, done that, yet I still didn't really know what to do when the roles were reversed. I have dug deep into my heart and mind to try to find what has worked for me, and tried to share those points at appopriate times.

But let's face it...no one can take away the pain of losing someone you love. I have missed Brian and my mom so much this week. I want so badly to go to sleep and wake up from this nightmare.

I thought I might get into feeling like writing tonight, but I just don't. I hope you will still check back soon. Please pray for Dean, who lost his earthly battle with melanoma early this morning, and pray for Jen, Johnny, David, Linda, Kadynce (4 yrs. old), and Chloe (9 yrs. old)...all fighting melanoma. Please also pray for little Kayleigh Anne Freeman, preemie I have been following and praying for, as her story has taken a devastating turn. I also ask your prayers for my dad's brother, who had heart surgery on Thursday to replace/repair valves in hopes of getting him back on the kidney transplant list. There are so many in need of our prayers.