Wednesday, December 30, 2009

It's in the Music

Took the girls out for lunch.

Lots of laughs.

Then from out of no where, the grief came.

Our song, blaring through the restaurant.  I tried to ignore it at first.

I finally told the girls I needed to excuse myself for a minute, and went in the bathroom and bawled.  I could hear the words like the first time I heard them...

We had talked on the phone.  I was going to be out and about and he wanted me to stop by.  I came to the door and he met me with his hand outstretched. 

Do you want to dance?

What? I remember thinking, ok, this is too good to be true.

Sure...I took off my coat and he clicked on the music, and this became our song.  We fell in love over the course of many dances to this song.  And although he loved to dance with me, he was pretty nervous about others seeing him at our wedding, and insisted (didn't have to twist my arm too much) that we practice quite often in the weeks before our wedding.

But today, the words pierced my heart...More by Bobby Darin...

More than the greatest love the world has known

This is the love that I give to you alone
More than the simple words I try to say
I only live to love you more each day.
More than you'll ever know
My arms long to hold you so
My life will be in your keeping
Waking, sleeping, laughing, weeping.


Longer than always is a long, long time
But far beyond forever, you'll be mine
I know I never lived before
And my heart is very sure
No one else could love you more.


More than the greatest love the world has known
This is the love that I give to you alone
More than the simple words I try to say
I only live to love you more each day.
More than you'll ever know
My arms got to hold you so
My life will be in your keeping

Waking, sleeping, laughing, weeping.

Longer than always is a long, long, long time
But far beyond forever, you'll be mine
I know I never lived before
And my heart is very sure
No one else could love you more.

 How can I ever have a love that even compares to that?  I can't even think beyond Brian now.  Even though I cried and was caught off guard, I feel happy to have heard the song today.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

and when you hear it, blare it, and DANCE. He gives you those moments so that you'll smile through the tears.

Loving you,
J.