"For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Matthew 11:30
I have to admit, it was a struggle for me to truly let God carry this burden, but I did it. I posted the previous note after midnight this morning. Today is my birthday, and I spent the first few hours of July 19th staring into the darkness. We were in Unionville overnight to attend Brian's Uncle Dave's funeral this morning. Everyone had gone to bed, and the news of the nexavar was more than I could take.
My heart raced. Yet I was calmed by the peace that only God can give. I kept repeating those words...trust Him, then watch him work. I asked God to carry this burden, to provide for us.
Thoughts flooded my head...another birthday without my mom. I was 32 when she died, and now I'm already 34. I used to love birthdays when I was a kid. Then when I hit about 25, I seemed to dread them. Maybe I wasn't enjoying life as I should have, or maybe I wasn't accomplishing enough to consider it to have been a good year. Then I met Brian. Now I love birthdays, and long for many, many more birthdays ahead. I try not to take for granted how quickly life can change.
I tossed and turned when I actually did get to sleep. My heart felt heavy. My emotions were running high during the visitation and funeral, and I kept telling myself that I couldn't worry about the drug being covered. I had to just believe that God would carry us through this.
I emailed before leaving Unionville to see if the nurse practicioner knew anything. I was greeted by an email when I got home, stating that the in-house pharmacy at Ellis Fischel had let them know that the nexavar went through insurance with a $30 co-pay.
Whew! I am so grateful that I let God take care of that, because I might not have gotten it right! It brings us hope in knowing that God really wants Brian to have this medication, and He did indeed show His hand in bringing this to us.
I am now the new spokeswoman for Blue Cross and Blue Shield!
No holds barred, so we're moving forward. Bloodwork and scans are scheduled for the early morning of Aug. 6, followed by the chemo infusion (5 hours). Nexavar is a medication Brian will take twice daily all month, and then the chemo infusion comes every 3 weeks.
This chemo will cause him to lose all of his hair. Brian is good with this, and it doesn't really even faze him. Everyone else get ready, because when he loses his facial hair (mustache and goatee) he'll look like he's 16 again!
Thank you for once again showing the power of prayer.
Many blessings to you all for a lighter load,
Jenni
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Wow! The power of prayer is amazing! I didn't read this blog until this morning, so as a part of my daily prayer life, which you and Brian are lovingly a part of, I didn't what specifically I was praying for. But God certainly did! Truly amazing!
I haven't kept up with your saga because I lost the link until today when my Jenny sent it to me. I pray every day for Brian's total healing. Keep laying it all in God's hands and thanking Him for accepting it all. Don't forget Ann and Bob are praying too. Love & hugs all around!
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