Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Seasonal Alligators and Miss Tess

Today turned into one of those so-so days. The girls arrived back in town from their trip to Branson with Tim and Abby and the girls. Tye has been at Phillip and Denise's. I drove to Unionville yesterday afternoon to spend the night and today, then bring him home. It was unbelievably difficult to be there this time without Brian, yet it feels good to be there...thus, that roller coaster feeling. I missed Tye, but enjoyed knowing he was having such a great time. He didn't want to leave with me today, which I know was because he loves them and loves the farm; even so, today wasn't a great day for him to not want to come home. So I spent 2 hours driving home, constantly thinking of Brian. I tried to change the subject several times, yet he is still such an integrated part of my life. What would Brian do? How would Brian handle this? It is difficult to even allow the thoughts in my mind of a life without Brian. Still, I was ok until the last leg of the trip.

I had picked the girls up and they were jabbering 90 miles an hour about their trip with their dad. I had driven about 5 miles and was approaching the stop sign at the intersection of 136 and F when Tye kept trying to interrupt. I got the girls to quiet down long enough to see what he wanted to add. Just as I came to a stop he said...I want my dad back.



You could have blown us over. The whole van was silent. No one knew what to say. I turned back to look at him and he had a quivery lip and just hung his head. Whew! This is tough stuff. So I said that I miss him too and that it is ok to miss Daddy. Then he said a few more times that he missed Daddy and he wanted to play with Daddy. I asked him if he wanted to come home and look at pictures of Daddy. Ok, he said...as he hung his head to town. The girls just stared ahead and seemed in shock.


He perked up upon coming in the house and unpacking things from the trips. We got busy doing some things and I started back in on his room (getting the house ready to sell). I was reaching for some things under his bed when my eyes started to water. I've been battling allergies terribly. That made my day too! Here came Tye. What are you doing Mom? Just cleaning. Are you ok? I looked up at him. My eyes were beat red because I had been rubbing them, not from crying, like usual. Tye said...I'm sorry Mom. Sorry for what, I asked. Sorry about Daddy. Then he came over and hugged me...so then I did cry. He jumped up and came back with a picture of Brian and said I might feel better if I look at a picture of him. (how cute)...still crying. Then he said, why are you crying? I said...I'm sad and I miss Daddy. He said...me too. Then he asked...why are your eyes so red? I said, well my allergies are acting up.

He said...YOUR ALLIGATORS!

I said...no, my allergies. He looked at me as if he were relieved to know he hadn't missed anything about an alligator.

So here are some pictures of Tye's cow. He chose it this weekend, #54...and he has named her Tess. She is a yearling and should be expecting her own little calf in Feb. He told Rachel...Tess is having 9 babies. Rachel said...wow, you're going to be rich! Tye gave Papa strict instructions on how to take care of Tess while he is gone (even though Papa has farmed all of his life!). Anyway, there are a few pictures of Tye playing at the farm too.

Enjoy!



By now Tess is trying to figure out why she is so famous, and Tye is trying to figure out how to convince Papa to let him go back inside the fence with her!





3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jenni - I hope your alligators are back under control. I love the shots of Tye and his cow - something you and I never thought our kids would have in common huh? I am amazed at Tye's maturity in dealing with losing his dad. It must be confusing on some level to be returning from his grandparents and listening to the girls talk about their visit with Tim - yet he has the insight of a little man in his discussions with you about Brian - to me that just illustrates what a fabulous job you are doing - mothering him through this ordeal - treating him like a thoughtful individual rather than as a non-comprehending child. You have never underestimated your children as so many parent do...that is a blessing. Love you! Teak

Anonymous said...

Sat and talked with Todd and Phil yesterday about cows and cars and politicians and good times with Brian. We got on the subject of that Cavalier he had. I told Phil he had no idea what we put that car through over the years.We even talked about that black ball cap he had. I found out he had kept that nasty thing all these years, I had to laugh. That thing looked and smelled pretty bad 10 years ago. As I have said before, Brian and I kinda lost touch over the years, but he was one of my best friends all through highschool and beyond. I really have alot of fond memories of him. Looks like Phil picked out a pretty good heifer for Tye. Hope Tess has alot of babies for for him. Jason Bushnell

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