As if...

As if I really needed a weekend set aside to remember Brian...

As if I needed a reminder that he is dead...

As if I needed a reason to go to the cemetery...

As if I needed a reason to cry...

Even so, I think that Mom and Brian's graves looked so nice; sad, but nice.

I decided not to take flowers to the cemetery this weekend. I will keep his grave kept throughout the year. I knew Brian's grave would be showered with flowers and momentos and visitors there in the quiet, there to see the new grass growing and the monument set, our names etched in stone, his death very real. While my dad was picking up flags tonight he saw a young boy walk to Brian's grave and place a flower. I have been visiting on such a regular basis that I forget there are others who have come to share the quiet time and visit Brian's grave as well. Thank you to everyone who helped to decorate his grave for this weekend, and all who had Brian in their thoughts. Aside from one set of flowers that I know blew away, this beautiful display survived the rain and wind over the weekend.

I would not say that this weekend was difficult really. You would think it would have been. I was glad to know there would be people out to see the monument and take time to think of Brian and remember him. I do that daily, many times a day. I have been to the cemetery a lot lately, with trying to get the grass to grow. It was actually a nice break to have it rain so that I could just let God take care of the watering the grass instead of dragging the kids out there so much. They don't seem to mind. Aside from when there are others at the cemetery, it doesn't hurt for my kids to run and laugh and play some while I tend to his grave.

Brian's aunt and uncle and cousin, plus Grandma Halley, all came on Friday for a quick visit. It seems just yesterday they were treking to Maryville as often as possible to see Brian, and now to think they are coming to visit his grave...

Brian's parents were here on Saturday and Sunday, and we enjoyed our visit as always. I can't imagine their grief in seeing Brian's grave, but I do know it felt good to be together.

We barbecued at Dad's today and Tye played in the sprinkler with Tori, Don, and Zeke. The girls were with their Dad and Abby and had a blast going fishing.

Tomorrow starts our first day of summer vacation, and we are going to clean out the garage! I hear there is rain in the forecast; no problem, because I am sure it is a two or three day job as it is!