I sit today and wonder how it is already almost 1:30 in the afternoon. It is like time does not apply right now. Brian received the Anointing of the Sick yesterday afternoon, and he continues to rest peacefully. The rattling has worsened, and he has a patch on now to help alleviate that. This morning we moved him from the hospital bed to our bed, which will allow for more privacy and quiet time, and also allow me to cuddle with him! I sprayed him with his cologne and I wish I would have done that sooner because the smell is very comforting.
I spent a lot of time last night, doing some sentimental things that Brian had requested. I have spent this afternoon reminiscing with him, and every once in a while, I get a glimpse of him. He kissed me back this morning when I kissed him.
We have more visitors today, and lots more goodbyes. My heart feels heavy, thinking that today is when Jesus died, how he spent the day suffering. There are signs that Brian's journey is progressing, and we continue to just love him.
Jenni
Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness. James Thurber
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- Jenni Halley
- I am a 38 year-old single mother of 3 beautiful, fun, smart, amazing children. I am one of the two families raising my two daughters (thanks to a divorce from my 1st husband), and I am raising my son alone (thanks to melanoma killing my 2nd husband). I enjoy using this blog to journal my feelings.
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I have recently shifted the focus of this blog back to follow the title. I fight melanoma everyday in the loss of Brian, in the loss of the girls' stepdad, and in the loss of Tye's daddy. At the one year anniversary of Brian's death, I decided to start a new blog about our family. I am keeping this blog to continue to share things on melanoma and other cancers, and rant and rave about how much it sucks to be a widow. It seemed in my mind that the time had come to split those. Please see the link below to visit my new blog. http://www.momto3gr8kidz.blogspot.com/
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9 comments:
Please know you are all surrounded by love - earthly and heavenly - as you journey through the valley with Brian - praying for all of you peace and comfort - hugs & blessings g
Jenni...
You are an Angel! You are doing all the right things for Brian and You. I continue to pray for Brian and You.
Loving thoughts and prayer to Brian & You, and the Family
Your Putnam County Friend, you are not alone
Jenni,
I have been thinking of your family today and have cryed several times for you. We do not even know each other however due to the internet I know what you have choosen to share. I just wanted you to know that you have been included in my prayers all day.
God Bless your entire family,
De Anne
Jenni,
You are doing all the right things. I pray for you and yours many times a day for the days that lie ahead. You are Brian's angel on earth, you truly are! Your love for one another is a testimony to us all. May the Lord give you the peace and comfort you need at this time.
YOU ARE MAKING VERY WISE CHOICES, YOU ARE TRYING TO KEEP SOME SORT OF "NORMAL" IF THAT IS POSSIABLE AT THIS TIME. TREASURE THE TIMES "YOU SEE BRIAN" BUT ALSO REJOICE THAT HE IS ABLE TO REST AS WELL. I LIFT YOU ALL UP IN PRAYERS, DEAR GOD JUST LET THIS FAMILY HAVE THE STRENGTH TO CONTINUE TO LOVE, CHERRISH AND CARE FOR BRIAN AS THEY ARE IN HIS HOME WHERE HE WANT'S TO BE. BE MERCIFULL TO BRIAN, AND CALL HIM HOME SWIFTLY AND WITHOUT PAIN. LET HIS FAMILY KNOW THAT HE IS IN YOU ARMS AND BEING CARED FOR BY YOU. LET THEM TREASURE THIS TIME WITH HIM. JUST UPLIFT THEM AND CARRY THEM AT THIS TIME. IN JESUS NAME AMEN.
DUE TO CHRIST DEATH ON THE CROSS THESE 2000+ YEARS AGO YOU CAN REJOICE WITH BRIAN'S FAITH THAT HE TO WILL BE RAISED TO GLORY WITH THE LORD. IN A PERFECT PLACE OF LOVE AND PEACE. NO PAIN AND SORROWS, HE WILL BE MORE ALIVE THAN EVER WHILE ON THIS EARTH. TAKE COMFORT IN THAT FACT. MY PRAYERS CONTINUE FOR YOU ALL. LOVE BEVERLY WORLEY
Jenni,
If anybody ever asks me to explain what love is, I'll just direct them to this blog.
Joe in Maryland
Jenni- My prayers are w/all of you. I wish I had words to make this all better, but there are none. Love and prayers- Nancy (Summers) Bowlden
I've been reading your blog for a long time and you have unknowingly taught me many things. You are a woderful example to many people. My heart is heavy and I pray for you and your family.
Heather Stoecklein
for some reason i cannot sleep tonight, maybe due to seeing this blog for the first time, maybe because God wants us up to pray. i do not know. i do know that seeing all this on the internet brings a completley different asppect of it all than simply hearing about it. i do pray tonight for all these in this family, for brian and his children, his wife, his mother & father, siblings and ones who love him dearly. father i pray that this family will know without a doubt that you are right there in their mist carrying them through this valley. i pray that this will even be a reunion with your spirit that they will feel your presence with them as they have never before felt. wrap your loving arms around each one so there testimony is so great that it will cause each who hear it to want to know you in a more personal way. take away brians pain and suffering soon. thank you for the faith of these people. their faith will be a testimony to others, please do this for them tonight i pray in Jesus Christ precious name. Amen
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